June 2012
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Shh — if you go quiet enough to hear the dark some thoughts will germ and plant themselves against it scattering the blankets by an extension of a foot or maybe a twitch just after that low snore that sounds like the plane we took from Long Beach and the passengers will be remembered colored in one seat at a time ending with your professor who you just discovered is gay and you feel a sense...
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taking a cue from another writer here and writing about a cigarette:
in some parts of california, far off the veined lined cities, they play songs that make your heart grow and sprout trees that shade just about anyone that needs it. and it’s the empty desert and you are presented to god as just a small speck stretched palms out and exploding with life, and the sky comes down, low on the...
How could she have known by staring out the window facing the western hill, from where no sun had ever risen for her, that beyond that hill was the city that held the rest of her life. But there were clues like the roasted chestnuts her grandmother held in her calloused hands and bit open with her teeth then scooped with a little spoon the rich yellow green flesh of the nut and fed them to her....
morning of 6.22.12
things I learned hanging out at her house while she was at work: the second drawer of her desk gets stuck half way out inside it are dozens of liquor bottle tops and pens, a dozen shades of red. she owns 16 different pairs of jeans and there’s little note papers in the pockets of half of them, one read: “LIBRARY WATERBILL replace key — WHY so busy? call me...
Mood Today 6.21.12: I want to be ten again and I want to be placed in the car and I want to turn in my seat and face the car’s back window and stare at the tall metal wall of the rented storage container and I want to tug at my seat belt until it locks and locks and I want to close my eyes and hear my old home disappear and I want to open my eyes and be in a new empty room with the whitest...
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my lips: endlessly undo everything I’ve said.
6.20.12
L.’s lips: from the slight natural pout, the grains of her lips soft and near tangible like water washing up over a warm smooth rock, disappearing as if there never were, the pressure pinching my upper lip gently and guided as if pressed in between sleep and a dream, and so close, the intimate scent of her life, living breathing, sending the strings under my chest to break —...
endlessly undo everything you’ve said: If you crumple up the bottom of her dress in your fist and lift up to the sunless pale of her thighs and press your short nails into her skin and drag up, a living red like burning leaves of fall will start to rise from some heat deep inside of her, some wretched love for you that’s been waiting all summer to reveal as the impress, long streaks of...
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The End. I dreamt the elastic dream. It stretched and stretched and I knew it would hurt. I stared in the faces of all other dreams waiting for the snap back, maybe hoping for that return to when it seemed so much smaller and manageable. But there it froze, a second before the slap and the waking and the bed, there, like a marble fawn forever waiting to be shot and to shoot back itself with a look...
I don’t want anything but I need everything she said while biting on her knuckles and crying desperately for a kind word to be presented to her so that she may reject it
I’m sorry love I told her but somethings come too late or it might be some things are decided for us even before we could’ve guessed and she shivered while sweating
Bone and skin and stolen purple we begged to...
how gentle is your life to be unseen and forgot, all the while the world.
The busy loving mothers, if this is possible, have been forced to learn to love more unconditionally. And my neighbor has started to drink out in the open. I want you to meet me behind the pool house, she slurs in an attempted whisper as if she could be caught again. Her eyes in an excited haze, loud eyes, strung out to me through the kitchen window and I can make out the ruin of her daily facade:...
